I know it’s hard, and awkward… But your therapist cares, and they’re there to listen. They actually really like it when you speak to them about the big stuff or the deep stuff you didn’t want to talk about. Because it makes it easier for them to help you! You won’t regret opening up a little more! You can do this!
[ID: A GIF with only the text moving. The drawing is of a frog smiling. The text above it reads, “You can do it!”.]
Serious subject matter here. I don’t know about you, but when I get overwhelmed (and with an anxiety disorder, that is OFTEN), my mind defaults to suicidal ideation. I am working on preventing this, but sometimes life just piles on the hurt and your mind goes to a dark place. So, this is my counter. It’s kind of similar to the idea “I can survive anything for the next 10 seconds” and then repeating it.
I may struggle with existing right now, but my life WILL end eventually. And if that’s the case, then I may as well stick it out until then. I may as well TRY to endure it and change things.
And, in having made that choice over and over, my life HAS gotten better. I mean, look at how much my art has improved. I have a book now? I am in a relationship with someone who is supportive and kind. I live in a beautiful place. And I wouldn’t have seen any of this happening when I was buried under my depression two years ago.
Please take a moment and think about it; what has gotten better in your life when you have chosen to stick around and fight?
P.S. Anna Akana did a beautiful video about this topic, “When I’ve Wanted to Die” here: https://youtu.be/LKXIKzH38_Y
Oh thanks!! This is also a good one!! In case the first doesn’t work or you don’t have the memory for a whole zip of your blog~
I successfully exported this blog, It took 2 days. You don’t need to leave the page open or be logged in for it to continue exporting. I’m not leaving tumblr as far as I know, but I wanted to see if exporting worked. I exported my nsfw blog, which is a lot smaller but was taking much longer to process. That blog had posts flagged as nsfw by tumblr. I deleted or appealed all the flagged posts and mysteriously the export was available a few hours later…. So I’m wondering if tumblr isn’t going to let us export a flagged blog bc, despite it being our content, it would still technically be them letting us download adult content from their site, which doesn’t sound like something they’d allow. That’s just my conspiracy theory, but if your blog has been processing for months you might want to go through it, and manually save&delete or appeal those posts. A few of my posts here got flagged wrongfully so it might be worth it to check since tumblrs flagging system is automated and doesn’t know what it’s doing.
You can see if your blog is flagged as nsfw here: http://www.postlimit.com/ I’m assuming removing my flagged posts and any use of the word “nsfw” helped. flagged posts will have a red banner above them in your https://www.tumblr.com/blog/(yourblogname) section so on my computer I spammed J (next post shortcut) to flip through and find those red bar posts faster.
Chartreuse Abstruseness Export 